Healing + Growth
🌱 A soft space for inner work, emotional healing, and imperfect self-growth.
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WDW Marathon Recap {lessons learned from a DNF}
{you can read about the expo/pre-race activities here and read the race recap here} I did not finish. I DID NOT finish. I DID NOT FINISH. Man, that’s a tough pill to swallow. I was super emotional about it right after it happened, but tried to suck it up… After all we were at Disney! Then I would remember that moment I knew I wasn’t going to cross that finish line and my heart would sink. Looking back I can see there were several practical lessons to learn from my DNF. I want to share those with you in case you are thinking about doing a marathon, so you don’t…
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Noise
There are so many random thoughts buzzing around in my head. I’ve been quite introspective lately. I love writing because it gives me a way to try to articulate the mess of thoughts, and to be honest, my thoughts usually make more sense to me after I write them down. Sometimes when I just sit and try to think and sort through my thoughts they just sound like noise. I crave those days when I used to just go sit at a coffee shop, listen to music and write about what is really on my heart. In those moments, when i am able to disconnect from the mundane everyday for…
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Melancholy.
Somedays I wake up with a pep in my step ready to take on the day and whatever challenges it may bring. Today was not one of those days. It wasn’t a bad day either, it just…. was. I looked around my house and tried to ignore the overflowing sink of dishes, crumbs on the floor, toys strewn about and tried my best to drown out the sounds of preschool shows on tv…. and for awhile I just sat. It’s not that often that we just are. Usually we are _________. You fill in the blank… cleaning, studying, late, on our way, eating, running, crafting…. but we hardly take the…
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finding focus
am i the only one who struggles with time management? I usually start my day/week with a list of things I need or want to do.Of course there is the regular dishes, laundry and every day straightening (I’m always doing these). Then there are the more or less “weekly tasks” like cleaning the floors, changing the sheets,cleaning bathroom (REALLY cleaning the bathroom) meal planning, grocery shopping etc. And last but not least there is the “wish list” of tasks to get done like blogging (ha!), cleaning out closets, organizing drawers. On top of that there is school, working out, reading for pleasure (ya, right), plus any craft projects (I’m currently working…
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redeeming love
so a couple of weeks ago i started reading “redeeming love” by francine rivers. i couldn’t put it down. i was captivated by this story of Michael’s obedience and sensitivity to the Lord’s prompting. my heart was broken at the insecurity, fear and sense of worthlessness of the woman he takes as his wife. i was dumbfounded at how many times the woman sabotaged her own happiness because of her distorted self-view. this story left my heart wandering for several days. just like when i read the stories of God’s provision to the Isrealites in the desert and asked “how could they not see God was taking care of them? how could…
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i am not what i do.
oh how i’ve been struggling with this since i started staying at home with Payton. hmm. now that i think about it i guess this goes further back. WAY back. i don’t think by any means that i had a horribly tragic childhood, let me just put that out there. do i know people who had better childhoods? yes. do i know people who had worse? most definitely. growing up in a family of four kids its pretty much a given that there will always be a war for attention. some kids got it by acting out, some by getting hurt…. i chose the “good kid” route. i was always…
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Savior King
You are our God. You alone are good. You asked your son To carry this the heavy cross our my weight of sin You are our God We worship you hope which was lost now stands renewed i give my life to honor this the love of Christ the Savior King
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one thing i ask…
so many times we (and when I say “we” I mean “I”) enter into our prayer time with a laundry list of things we “need” from God… be it wisdom, healing, financial breakthrough, emotional breakthrough… we sit there and rattle them off sandwiched between our “dear Lord”s and “heavenly father”s. Now, there is nothing wrong with this until it becomes our only time of prayer. We “close the call” with a quick amen and are back on our way. Today I was reading through Psalm 27 and I realized that we are missing something… that I am missing something. I often have these times of revelation that humble me and…
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$48.02
So today I was out running errands and I needed a few things from the store. I saw that some of the things I wanted to get were on sale at Aldi’s so after returning some overdue library books, that’s where we headed. When we arrived a nice lady gave us her cart (For those of you who don’t know about Aldi, you have to put a quarter in to get a cart and you get that quarter back when you return the cart). I thought that was so nice! Then we went inside to get what we needed. We were having fun just wandering around the store. I got…
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distracted.
so here i am once again distracted from my to-do list. particularly from my massive amounts of reading for my american history and earth science classes…. i can only read so much textbook before starting to go cross eyed. So I do what any college student would do… procrastinate. and i find myself drawn to write… i’ve been thinking about the seasons changing. profound, i know (especially considering tonight marks the official start of fall). i’ve started to see a few leaves changing here and there, although the weather could fool you into thinking we were in the middle of summer, rather than on the cusp of fall. i love…