Healing + Growth
🌱 A soft space for inner work, emotional healing, and imperfect self-growth.
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lessons.
i enjoy learning. sometimes the season of learning isn’t easy. sometimes its long. and painful. but i can honestly look back and say i’m thankful for the lessons learned up to this point. and i’m thankful for the lessons i’m learning now. some are so simple, yet so profound. i’ve been listening to the song “how he loves us” quite a bit lately. i am completely blown away by the lyrics, and sometimes I can’t get past the first line… HE is jealous for me. the God of the Universe… the vast, uncontainable, being… is jealous for me. sometimes i think about what God thinks about me. obviously I “know”…
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community.
sometimes my mind starts racing a million miles an hour with thoughts so deep. other times i feel like my mind is a shallow pond consumed by the thoughts of this world. today i felt torn between the two, but felt a strong tugging towards the all too often ignored deep waters. it started this morning as i was driving, i was praying and listening to worship music i started to remember my innocent genuine prayer times when i was a young girl. i long for that purity and innocence again. i chuckled as i thought of my idea of repentance during those prayer times. i thought of myself as…
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This is a test.
This was the title of my devotional this morning. I had to sit back and chuckle. It’s like one of those obvious jokes. I sat back and said “ok, God, good one.” His timing is always perfect. We hear it all the time, but it seems like those lessons are quickly forgotten when the time comes to use them. I can’t tell you how many times my youth pastor had me read, memorize and quote James 1. We used to joke that when things were a little rough and people asked us how we were that we could respond “joyful” because James 1:2-4 tells us to consider it pure joy.…
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thoughts on ministry.
a lot has been on my mind today. I think because we have a week off of school, so now I find myself sitting around a clean house wondering what to do with my time. TV has become boring (maybe because I’ve seen all the shows I want to watch). I think of tons of projects to do around the house, but then realize that costs money. I would take Payton out to do something fun, but she’s too young to go play at the park. I really do want to take her to the zoo, but that just doesn’t seem fun to do by ourselves. So I’ve been making…
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You’ll Come
This is the prayer of my heart this morning. Praise Abba, He is ever faithful!!! I have decided I have resolved To wait upon you Lord My rock and redeemer shall not be moved I’ll wait upon you Lord As surely as the sun will rise You’ll come to us As certain as the dawn appears You’ll come let your glory fall As you respond to us Spirit reign flood our hearts With holy fire again We are not shaken we are not moved We wait upon you Lord Our Mighty deliverer my triumph and truth I’ll wait upon you Lord Chains be broken Lives be healed Eyes be opened…
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steep.
Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Matthew 6:33 message I was doing my bible reading today and this verse really encouraged me. I know we all hear it so many times… “Seek first the kingdome of God and all these things will be added to you.” but hearing it in the message really made it so real to me. First of all it says Steep, which makes me think of tea. When making tea you steep the tea bags in the hot water… you let it sit there and marinate. The longer you let…
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today’s thoughts.
So I’m trying to get into the habit of writing everyday, even if I don’t feel like I have anything specific to say. Writing is a release of sorts. I feel like I have revelations that I wouldn’t have had if I hadn’t tried to explain it in writing. Sometimes I feel like writing is a drain-o of sorts, it just unclogs my mind and lets the thoughts flow out. I was talking with Chris yesterday morning about how I just feel a whole new level of peace these days. I can’t explain it, but for the last couple of months I feel like i’ve been struggling. There has just…
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Mary and Martha
38The Lord and his disciples were traveling along and came to a village. When they got there, a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39She had a sister named Mary, who sat down in front of the Lord and was listening to what he said. 40Martha was worried about all that had to be done. Finally, she went to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it bother you that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her to come and help me!” 41The Lord answered, “Martha, Martha! You are worried and upset about so many things, 42but only one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen what…
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Ask, Seek, Knock?
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; those who seek find; and to those who knock, the door will be opened- Matthew 7:8 I’ve heard this verse over and over and over again. It seemed so elementary for so long. Something I just didn’t think about. It seemed like such a positive affirmation that you will be rewarded for your work… blessed for your effort…. but what exactly is it that we are to ask for? For what are we seeking? and where are we knocking? Please, leave me a…