38The Lord and his disciples were traveling along and came to a village. When they got there, a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39She had a sister named Mary, who sat down in front of the Lord and was listening to what he said. 40Martha was worried about all that had to be done. Finally, she went to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it bother you that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her to come and help me!”
41The Lord answered, “Martha, Martha! You are worried and upset about so many things, 42but only one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen what is best, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:38-42
This story has been on my mind the last few days…. I have found myself being more of a martha recently… always finding something to do, somewhere to serve. I guess when it comes to the church I have always been that way. I am really searching to find a balance for that. I want to give and serve, but right now I just feel so worn out that I just need to take time and sit at the Masters feet and really absorb his teaching. I feel like church and even a major part of my relationship with God as a whole has become such a chore, so task oriented. I feel like I’ve lost a part of the relationship aspect that I used to thrive on. Even now as I find myself home with Payton all day I should have more “free” time on my hands to dive into prayer, bible reading and worship but somehow I always find something to do… laundry, cleaning, little errands and to do lists and of course right as I think about getting into prayer and bible reading and Payton wakes up. Then I get her back to sleep and the cycle starts over. At least I am conscious of it. That means I can make an effort to change it. It is truly just a choice. Verse 42 in the passage above Jesus tells Martha “Mary has chosen what is best and it will not be taken from her.” Just as Martha chose to worry about what needed to be done, Mary chose to sit and listen. Another revelation, she sat and listened she didn’t just pray her prayer list get up and walk away, she was still and listened to what Jesus had to say. Oh, how often I do the former more than the latter. It is so easy to go through my check list of prayer requests and jump up and go back to what needs to be done, rather than just sit and be.
So, heres a new beginning!
imperfectly courtney 