Coffee Date

Coffee Date: Am I _____ Enough?

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Good Morning Friends, Happy Friday! Gosh I’m glad it’s Friday. This has been one loooooong week with so many ups and downs. If we were having coffee I’d be excited to break away from the chaos to chat with you. I’d be drinking my coffee with canned coconut milk. I think I’ve perfected the best cup of coffee I can have on the whole30. What would you be drinking?

If we were having coffee I would thank you for your response to last weeks coffee date. It was so comforting to know that I’m not the only one who struggles with friendship. I mentioned last week that I thought maybe I wasn’t enough…. Or maybe I was too much. That idea has weighed on my mind all week. Am I not outgoing enough? Am I too honest? One of you commented that finding true friends means they will love you no matter what. And I “know” that but I can’t help but think something is wrong with me. I’m working on that. There are some things I know I need to work on, as I’m not perfect… But I’m also working on stopping the self blame with this friendship issue.

If we were having coffee I would tell you this week the “enough” monster struck again. When we got the final approval to open our CrossFit I was immediately struck with the thought “am I good enough?” – I know that I am smart enough. I have studied and passed all the requirements. But would people look at me and think that I’m not fit enough? I started to doubt myself.

If we were having coffee I would tell you I am proud of how far I’ve come on my journey. I know that I’m not finished, but I don’t know that I ever will be.

And I know that I am enough. Even if I forget sometimes.

If we were having coffee, what would you tell me?

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Writer, mom, and licensed therapist exploring what it means to heal, unlearn, and rewrite your story.

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