GEARing Up for 2013- Fashletics

Today I’m continuing on with the GEARing up for 2013 Series. Today’s gear has a bit of a backstory that I feel like must be told. So here goes…

I still remember the day I first walked into CrossFit O’Fallon. It was buzzing with some kind of energy I couldn’t explain. People laughing and joking while going through their “warm up” (which I thought should be considered it’s own workout!) and they all looked like they were having fun. As I looked around the place seemed so foreign. Rowers were the only “machines” found in the small industrial space. “Learn to never quit” was the quote plastered on the wall, conveniently placed right above the pull up station. I remember being terrified that I wasn’t going to be able to do it. I thought I wouldn’t be strong enough, fast enough, or good enough. It wasn’t long before I was making a list of things that I would never be able to do. I spotted the wooden boxes scattered throughout the room. They jump on to those? No way I’m getting this chunky butt to do that. Pull ups? Even with those crazy bands I’d never be able to. Forget about that tumbling mat against the wall, there was no way I was getting into a handstand. As I watched the normal class start adding weight to their barbells I thought there is no way… I’m just not strong enough. The first time I picked up one of the 35lb bars I didn’t think I’d even get used to using that. Adding on those intimidating bumper plates was out of the question. I just wasn’t strong enough. I have always been the chunky, out of shape girl… even after training for a marathon. Why would this be any different?

Thing is… It was. Somewhere in between those 5am workouts, protein shakes, and callouses something awakened on the inside of me. It wasn’t overnight. For the first several weeks I couldn’t even get my foot into the bands for pull ups on my own. Then I started to realize that I may have been scaling down some of the movements… but I was finishing every workout. I wasn’t the fastest, most of the time I finished last. Even if I was last I always had the support and encouragement of the others in the class with me. They were quick to tell me I did a great job (even if I was on the verge of puke… or tears… or both). A spark of hope erupted in my soul. At first I was afraid to embrace it, because I was always disappointed before. This time felt different though. Maybe this time I could be enough. Fast enough. Strong Enough. Good enough.

And suddenly it just clicked.


I had been literally working for months to try to get a box jump. I would tell myself to jump and always psych myself out at the last second. The box jump began to be about so much more than just a box jump. It was everyone who ever told me I couldn’t. It was everything I told myself I could never do. It was the “chubby girl can’t jump” mindset I’ve had since my pre-teen years. It was every fitting room I’ve run out of crying because nothing fit. Every fat joke I made because laughing was easier than crying. It was all of my fears, insecurities and doubts all nailed together in a measly 18″ wooden box. And several times a week for months I would stare it down. Tell myself I was going to do it…. and miss. People were watching me struggle. They saw me try and told me I could do it. I had heard those words before, but this time I started to believe them. I stacked up some bumper plates the same height as the box. and I jumped. and I nailed it. I put the pile of bumper plates next to the box… jumped again. nailed it. I went for the box. It was the same height I just jumped. I knew it. I am good enough to do this. I jumped…. and nailed it. 

That day I conquered the box jump was more than just another physical accomplishment. It was an absolute mental turning point for me. I was enough the whole time. CrossFit just helped me believe that. It made me think of other areas of my life that I was holding myself back in. What else am I missing out on because I believed the lies I had been told (or had told myself) for years? Suddenly instead of just brushing things off saying “Oh I could never…” I began to seek out opportunities to try new things… because Why Couldn’t I?

I still struggle. Just last week we did the “Victoria” Hero WOD in memory of Victoria Soto, one of the teachers killed in the Sandy Hook tragedy. I knew it was going to be a tough one just looking at it.


There was a 40 Minute time cap, which seemed reasonable until the hubs and his bestie (both complete beasts) finished in 30 and 32 minutes. Immediately I began telling myself it was ok to hit the time cap, since their times were so close to it. After the 3rd round I had come to terms with the fact that I would just hit the cap. That voice told me I couldn’t. And I started to believe it. The large 9am class had mostly finished, it was me and 2 others left working as we approached the time cap… I had burpees and kettlebell swings left, and was at around 37 minutes. The large group of people that had finished were cheering me on. And at that moment, I believed I could. I dropped myself to the ground and peeled myself back up 12 times for some of the ugliest burpees you’d probably ever seen. It was still before 39:00… I could do this. I’m not sure if the cheering got louder or if every part of my body was on edge because of exhaustion… but I grabbed the kettlebell and started to swing. My palms were sweaty, my body tired. Up and down up and down… 27 times. I finished that WOD in 39:27, just under the time cap. I totally believe that I finished that WOD because my CrossFit family believed I could. Had they not cheered me on, I would have listened to that voice that told me I couldn’t.

So when people ask me why I get up at 4am to workout, this is why.
When people ask me what it is about CrossFit that I love, this is it.
Because it taught me to believe in myself.
Because it reminds me every day that I am enough. 

So, as we move on with our GEARing up for 2013 posts… This one has a super special meaning. Today’s must have Gear to keep you on track to meet your goals this year is from Fashletics.


Staying motivated is a HUGE key to achieving your goals. Fashletics has an awesome line of CrossFit jewelry to help motivate and inspire you. When I saw this charm, I knew I had to have it.


I paired it with a dumbbell charm, because how fun is that! It is the perfect visual reminder of the breakthroughs and progress I have made, and that I will continue to make this year. Anytime I start to doubt myself I can just look at this necklace and remember: i am ENOUGH.


All their jewelry is handmade. It is designed by Sarah Wilson, a fellow CrossFitter. I love that it is beautiful, but also tough… just like most CrossFit Chicks I know! It can also be personalized. They have several other motivational sayings and charms, even some for running too! I love the kettlebells they have. I totally need more of this in my life for sure.


And because you are awesome, Fashletics is offering you a 10% discount – just use the code LIVELOVELIFT when checking out.

I was going to include my Sweaty Bands review/giveaway, but this got wordy fast… so stay tuned for that tomorrow.

If you had (or have) motivational jewelry, What would your word/saying be?


16 thoughts on “GEARing Up for 2013- Fashletics”

  1. You are such an inspiration. It is absolutely beautiful that you made the shift within yourself. Finding strength through physical activity is a feeling like no other. The empowerment and beauty of FEELING the confidence that is par for the course? Nothing compares. Here’s to a happy, healthy, and EVEN STRONGER 2013 for you pretty lady! xoxo


  2. Great post Courtney! It’s so inspiring to read about these types of turning point moments! I love your mantra and the charm is really cute. SPA love!


  3. Love it! It sounds like you really have made some great strides and having amazing people cheering you on can make all the difference in the world. Keep up the great work!

    SPA Love,


  4. Girl! I love reading your blog!!! You are so inspiring to me!!! This is a beautiful post that speaks to all of us “chunky butts”!! Thank you for your honesty and heart!


  5. Awesome post! Way to go on pushing through and finishing that WOD!

    My words are “You Are Worth It”. I have to remind myself that a lot, I have a hard time putting myself before others.


  6. I love your outlook and optimism. You are the epitome of a true journey of finding yourself and physically surpassing all of your expectations! You inspire me everyday that you wake up at 4am and I see your IG pics to push myself just a little further than I normally would. Thank you! 🙂


  7. Wow. That’s a heck of a post. I’ve seen some improvements for myself over the past couple of weeks, and I feel that it’s due to the type of encouragement from my peers.

    Thanks for sharing.


  8. Oh I love Fashletics. I won a kettlebell necklace on a giveaway once… unfortunately I never did get it – darn – so cute.

    Good for you on that box! That is one I cannot make myself do. Awesome for you to get over the mental hurdle.


  9. I felt the same way when I started doing triathlons, I just wanted to finish and now after four years I can FINALLY call myself a triathlete. It feels good to be strong doesn’t it?

    And girl I’ve been following your progress on IG and seriously you are BEAUTIFUL, you are A ROCKSTAR and YOU ARE ENOUGH!!! Keep it up, and thanks for the inspiration.


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