My oh my, it has been a long time since I updated this blog. so much has been going on in my head. life seems like it is constantly happening faster than I can keep up with. Next week my baby girl will be 6 months old. It happened so fast! Shes sitting up on her own and is trying to figure out the whole crawling thing. We even got her a convertible car seat and “big girl” stroller. Her personality shows through more and more everyday. Today was so precious. It was getting close to her nap time but she was still in such a cute mood. So instead of just taking her up to her crib I took her into our bed and we just played and laughed and cuddled. We both fell asleep. She woke up and looked at me and smiled. It’s really those moments that make everything worth it. Financial strain, weight of responsibility, feeling tied down… it all just dissipates. And it was just precious.
As far as life otherwise… I’ve been keeping up with school and actually enjoying it. I’m over halfway through my second term. I took Psych 101 last term and this term I’m taking Abnormal Psych, which has been interesting. I didn’t realize there were so many “theories” or approaches to psychology. I’m trying to soak in all the info I can, and I find it hard to try not to “analyze” people. So if you see me staring at you quizzically its probably because I’m trying to figure you out and why you think and act the way you do. Consider this your warning. I’ve actually been thinking a lot about what happens when I finish school. I want to use what I learn to help people. I struggle because I don’t want to be a typical “christian counselor” but I don’t think I could be a non-“christian” counselor and not share my faith as an avenue for healing. We’ll see how it all plays out.
Learning about the way people think and learn has caused me to think a lot about Christians. I have always been intrigued by peoples stories in general, but lately I have been thinking a lot about people and their experiences with God. I was thinking how I know I can never know what has gone on in someone’s heart, but I also know that you know a tree by the fruit it bears. I have seen so many people who have fervently served God, but then are able to just walk away from any relationship with God. I struggle with that because I know that I know that I know God is. And I have experienced Him in ways that are too real to be able to turn away from. And to be honest sometimes I have wished that I could just walk away, but I just can’t. Because I have experienced God in too real of a way to be able to. So what happens to make someone who so passionately served God be able to just walk away? I struggle understanding that. By no means am I condemning or belittling anyone that has found themselves in that position… but I want to know what changes? I don’t know if I will ever find the answer. But I am hoping I can see just a little of what someone might have experienced.
anyway, my psychology book is calling my name once again. time to fill up the coffee cup and open up the brain.
whats new in your life?
imperfectly courtney 