Weight Loss

That Moment.

Oh, Hey there friends.

Sorry it’s been so long. The holiday had me away from the computer, and I didn’t fight it. We had family in town, did fireworks, went to Six Flags, had an awesome CrossFit For Hope Event that I’ll post about tomorrow, and went to the movies to see Lone Ranger (It was good… different, but good!)

Anyway, that’s not what I was going to talk to you about today. Today I want to talk about “that moment”

You know that moment you’ll probably remember forever. We have a lot of moments like that. From your first kiss, to your engagement/wedding, the birth of your children… and that time you fit into a pair of size 12 shorts.

I know it sounds crazy to add in that last one, but this journey for me has been a long one. I’ve seen a lot of NSVs (non-scale victories) and even some amazing victories on the scale, like hitting ONEderland. But despite all of those moments I still sometimes struggle to feel “normal” sized. My shape has changed dramatically but I still have rolls and bulges that make finding pants or shorts that fit a huge ordeal. Most times I go to look for shorts or jeans and come home with workout pants. When I really started this weight loss journey I was probably a 22. I wore my maternity clothes for a good long while after giving birth before giving in and buying some new jeans… size 20.

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Most of my pre-pregnancy jeans were a tight 18. The smallest I remember being was a 14, freshman year of high school. Before that I didn’t really pay attention to sizes. I wore baggy oversized clothing to avoid the inevitable embarrassment of the dressing room. I remember being so envious of my friends who could just go shopping at the mall and buy whatever they wanted in their size and be done with it. I remember having to reach to the back of the rack for the largest size and pray that it would fit. I can’t even begin to imagine the things I stuffed my body into that probably looked horrible but I wore it anyway just because it zipped.

Sidenote/Newsflash: Just because it zips, doesn’t mean that it fits. 

So, why is a size 12 so important to me? Because for me it is a huge breakthrough to know you are in a “normal” size. Many stores only carry up to 12 and start the “Plus” section at 14. Being a size 12 in my mind would equate to me being a more normal size. It may be weird, but it’s just how I felt about it.

Ahem, sorry. So a few weeks ago I went to gap and got some shorts that I was excited about because they fit. Some were 16’s and some were 14’s. I was able to wear the 16s no problem but the first day I wore the 14’s I thought they felt a little tight. I put them away for 2 weeks. I pulled them back out and to my surprise they fit and were comfortable! Say whhhhaaat.

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I wore them all day and even around Six Flags. The hubs gave me several compliments and I knew gap was having a sale so I went back on Sunday to find another pair. I found some adorable pink ones but they only had size 16 and size 12. I immediately reached for the 16, out of habit. When we got in the dressing room I honestly prepared my heart for disappointment as I took the 12s off the hanger. I’ve tried smaller sizes and been let down far too many times to let myself get my hopes up that they would event get past my hips. One foot in… other foot in… pull them up…. and wooosh, they slide past my hips. I brace myself for the struggle to get the button anywhere near the button hole, but it lines up with ease.

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THEY ZIPPED.

Now they are still a bit more snug than I’m used to, but I didn’t feel uncomfortable in them. They were $10 so you can bet they came home with me.

I know this journey isn’t all about the scale and sizes and numbers, it’s about being healthy. But today meant something more to me than just a pant size. Today I started to see myself the way others have been seeing me for awhile. Losing weight isn’t just about losing weight, its about changing your own perception of who you are. Despite losing a significant amount of weight and being in the best shape of my life I still see myself as the fat girl. Today I was just another girl shopping for a pair of shorts. Please understand it wasn’t the size on the tag that changed that. It was just that moment that made me realize what I had been all along.

What are some of “those moments” for you?

 

18 thoughts on “That Moment.”

  1. Although I already read your little blurb on Facebook the other day, I have to chuckle because I bought THOSE SAME SHORTS for $10! Yep, hot pink too. Actually, mine were from Old Navy, but same difference. And Girrrl, I didn’t stop at hot pink. I also bought olive and khaki too. Because when you find a pair of shorts that fits, you buy every freaking color!

    A battle with weight will always been a struggle for girls like us. Take it one day at a time. Celebrate the NSV and don’t sweat the bad days, just sweat it out. ha ha

    I don’t know if you knew that I used to be heavy in high school. At one point, I wore a size 16. When I pregnant with my first, I gained 90 pounds and wore maternity and size 16 clothes for 6 months. It took me forever to lose the weight. So, I’ve had my struggles with weight for sure.

    Now that you know what works for you, hang onto it. You’ll be so far ahead of those girls that starve themselves to lose weight. Real women eat to fuel our bodies so we can lift really heavy things and run. 🙂

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  2. Love this- and such an important reminder!! And yes, I have had one too many of the “Sidenote/Newsflash: Just because it zips, doesn’t mean that it fits. ” moments. 🙂

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  3. I love that you are comfortable posting pics of yourself in less than comfortable positions.

    I think it’s amazing looking back at your former self and seeing how you look today! That dressing room pic – you look absolutely a normal size! And if I just met you now, I would never in a million years guess that you looked as you did in the prior pic!!

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  4. Great work! You have come so far! I’m so happy you got to experience this moment. You really deserve it. Love the message here.

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  5. OMG, yes!!!! What an amazing moment for you! My heart is BURSTING with happiness. 😀

    I remember having a similar moment the first time I hit size 14, walked into The Gap, and they had my size on the rack. I legit started to cry! ha! Can’t wait to get back to that spot.

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  6. WAY TO GO! NSV are the best! Just yesterday, I tried on 4 pairs of jeans that were still “just too tight” 6 months ago and 3 out of 4 slipped on perfectly! I felt like a million bucks!
    PS-LOVE the hot pink shorts!

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  7. GIRL! I am SO stoked for you. I had this moment this past summer so I 100% understand how amazing it is!! Keep up the hard work. You look fabulous!! 🙂

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  8. I think the BEST part of losing weight is getting into those smaller sized clothes and feeling confident in what you wear. Congratulations!!

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